Luckily the day after I found out Balboa wasn’t an option, I
was able to get a new referral right away to another fertility clinic. The one
our insurance referred us to is right down in Beverly Hills, which means that
we are closer to home. We can get there
in a few hours and if I need to make the drive alone, I can manage.
We had our initial appointment with our doctor and we both
are really excited about him. He is top
rated in the nation, works in some of the top hospitals in LA and did his
fertility studies in London where the first “test tube baby” was made(??)
As amazing as it is to have modern medicine, and be able to
still get pregnant with science, I still feel guilty that I can’t get pregnant
naturally. And I feel guilty that we
have to pay a lot of money that others don’t have to, to get pregnant. We’ve had mixed emotions about getting
pregnant and trying to get through this process before Zach leaves.
Are we putting too much pressure on ourselves? When I look at everything that has happened,
I could still be blindly trying clomid.
I could have been with a doctor that never recommended a HSG. I could be waiting on Balboa. But we are where we are for a reason. I felt strongly to switch doctors, who
recommended a test to diagnose why I wasn’t getting pregnant. And when Balboa fell through, we got into
this new fertility clinic right away, with a perfect amount of time to get a
cycle done before Zach leaves. How
divinely designed is everything?
I’m not ever saying that I have been really happy about the
situation, but I can tell you it’s so much easier to look back and realize that
there is a plan for us. And everything
that has happened, has happened for a reason.
Zach and I continue to grow stronger and stronger everyday. And when I have a hard day, he will grab me
and sweetly say, “you worry about being
healthy and stress free, and I will worry about the rest.”
